Serenity escapes me, peace of mind it will not come, Unfinished love, longing for things left undone, My family surrounds me, full of love and support, Yet I’m still lonely, without my cohort, Judging from the way I feel, looking into my eyes, Longing for her next to me, to hear her loving sighs, How can a heart, so full of love, deny compromise? How can a soul, so full of spirit, denial solemnize? I had the tiger by the tail, the world at my feet, I had the love of my life, yet I forced retreat, She’s gone from my life, but never from my dreams, Yet I see her still, when gazing on our moonbeams, I see her face, still and at peace, lying in the dark, I see her shape, her graceful walk, a noble matriarch, Her beauty transcends, all I have known, and know I never will, A beauty so deep, a love so kind, yearning for her still, I miss her with all of my heart, thinking with every breath, Of how I could let her go, feeling only death, For now my love is elsewhere, living her own life, And I am here, alone again, she could have been my wife, If only I had let her, if only I could have seen, Of what it was she was telling me, I became obscene, She needed time to heal, time to cry, time to let it go, Time for herself, time for love, of that now I know, She wanted a man, who could understand, more than she could see, She wanted a man, who knew of love, loving unconditionally, She wanted me to give her, time and grace to heal, She wanted me to know, love me she always will, While I should be thankful, for what I had, it’s no consolation, Of having her near, by my side, loving exaltation, Now I pray, and wish on stars, for a future with her yet, A future of love, of giving hearts, never again to forget, What it was, she meant to me, why she was my queen, What it was that brought us together, lives divinely intervened, She was my soulmate, a gift from heaven, my beacon in the night, And I took her for granted, discounted her fears, of her love I lost sight, Never again, will I be blind, blind to her love, Never again, will I not see, my gift from above, I lost her once, pushed her away, left her to herself, And now I know, of what it was, pride of myself, I’ll race the race, of my life, for I must win, Not a contest of wills, not a game of chance, a forgiveness for my sin, She was my world, my universe, my heaven here on earth, I tossed her aside, ignored her needs, but now I suffered rebirth, She showed me the path, from my dark gloom, my chance to make it right, But now I must work, harder than ever, her love is in my sight, I have a goal, a course of action, something to achieve, Winning her heart, proving to her, hoping she believes, My love for her, it will not die, nor do I want it to, My yearning for her, my dreams of tomorrow, to hearing her soft coo. Written for Sue, June 6, 1996 I am sorry for the pain I caused, for hurting you still, find room to forgive me, loving you, I always will. Written for Sue, June 5, 1996.
Reason for writing:
Again, this was written for the love of my life, my Sue.
Pray with me that one day her and I will be reunited.
Thank you.
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