If I should never again see your face, or take you to our special place, Looking through your pane of rock, overlooking what we did stock, And feeling you, joined as one, of life not lived, we left undone, Peering at the majestic peak, your beauty so deep I dare not speak, Watching the deer come out to graze, upon your soul, my heart does gaze, With trembling hands I can almost feel, through my mind, my senses reel, Of promises yet broken, secrets shared, your heart so grand, I know you cared, Two lives, swept upon the tide, of burning desire, neither could hide, Passionate kisses, soft wet lips, delicate touch of your fingertips, This drowning man cries "Don’t let me go", Because deep in your heart, I know you know, The truth I speak, the truth you hear, the heavenly joy when we are near. When we’re apart, angels weep, our haunting love deep within our sleep. Dreaming dreams of you with me, dreaming dreams of what we could be. I know no happiness, while you’re away, that is why, for us, I pray. Together again, joined as one, our love more brilliant than the sun, Know that I am here, waiting for you, praying for guidance, knowing what to do, I’m learning patience, learning to wait, for this has never been one of my traits, For you I will wait through eternity, for you and I, and what we can see, My heart is torn open, with a love so grand, for you I will wait, my hat in my hand, My heart is wounded, torn in two for the one I love, you know that is you, My soul it cries, for misspent time with you I wasted, that is my crime, For you have given me more than I know, to you I gave pain, reaping what I sow, Loving me like no other can or will, in spite of myself, my bitter pill, Now I am learning of how true love feels, remembering pain I caused, hoping time heals, Begging forgiveness for pains I have caused, loving blindly, wounds needing gauzed, Publicly I cry, missing you so much, your kind words, soft voice, gentle touch, With you away, a part of me is gone, I hear our love in every song, I refuse to bury you with the rest of my past, I want to cherish you, with my breathe I breath last, Your love was a beacon, I spied through my mire, for now I know love, your love set me afire, Each passing moment, I think only of you, hoping your thoughts turn to me often too, The memory of us, it will not fade, haunting my thoughts, this bed that I made, The pain, will it never cease, rearing it’s head, an ugly beast, This burning desire, this unquenched thirst, wishing we had met each other first, Unfinished business, our unfulfilled dream, deep in my heart, there’s a silent scream, A scream for you, for my love gone awry, who to turn to, alone, I cry, I tried to keep you all to myself, but you’re a person, not a thing on the shelf, I tried to change you, to make you see, I was blind to what you needed from me, Oh how I wish I could do it all again, now it would be different, not what has been, But now it’s too late, as we are apart, alone I struggle, with this pain in my heart, Do I kill it, make the pain go away, or give to another, on some other day? Do I deny it, bury it deep inside, or wear it on my sleeve, my badge of pride? Do I cherish it, revel in my pain, or nurture it, learning to love again? For what I want and what I have are two different things, what I lost was worth more than the treasures of the kings, No white knight on horseback, no surgeon to you, for now I know, to myself, I’ll be true, I’m not half of who and what I professed to be, I’m broken and learning, learning to be me. You’ll never know of how sorry I am, loving you always, I am, your Sam. Written for Sue, June 3 - 4, 1996
Reason for writing:
Sue and I lived right at the Garden of the Gods in Manitou
Springs, Colorado. It was a beautiful park, often inspirational.
Sue found a little 'window' in one of the rocks, and it offered
a beautiful view of Pike's Peak. Anyway, this poem is for
her, and to express my loss.
Birth sign: Not entered
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