SeLf-doubt Dying

by Layla Soileau, saggitarius - Not entered

Touch me with your eyes
In them I can feel all of your strengths and weakness
run through me like electricity
As I look away I feel your heart sigh with longing
or maybe that was just me, maybe  my imagination
I look behind me for her, but no one is there
I dance with insecurities spining me around like an unsure ballerina
Fall onto you a fairy tale of a five year old dead
Courage to look into you once more and I find your eyes,
in the distant trees, not seeing
And I don't know how to begin to show you
how to return your gaze when your eyes can't forgive my doubt
Insecurities spinning, spinning me around like a ballerina
Tossing me up into air to no one, no one
accidentally? coincidentally? you catch me with your eyes
again and my lips can't be still as I try a little too hard to say hello
You've saved me from my  fall of numbing self-doubt, or have you?
and I look behind me for her and no one is there
Your eyes beckon me with electric answers
and how can I say no?
letting go f the ego who directs the insecurities
who spin me, dancing, away from you
I can let it go, I can let it go
When you touch me with your eyes
love, is it love when you
  touch me with your eyes?

Reason for writing:

    I wrote this because its impossible for me to believe that it was  me he was staring at with his blue eyes. I was sure he was looking past me at some other girl. 
If you have any advice, criticism, or comments, I'd love to hear 'em. -Layla    

Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1996-06-24 15:35:00
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:38:51
Poem ID: 45133

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