Unfortunately

by Jenni Balsam - Not entered

These windows
covered in wild burlap sacks
Everything gets close to being beautiful,
and then it stops.

He hangs out on the iron railing
below
I am a grey silhouette
living between the screen and the glass

He is pleading, pointing
come out and play kitty-kitty,
Come out.
I am busy protecting my young
in this bed, these windows.
I do not move because
at my core
I am a ballerina with glittery wings

and I tend to my scars like 
an art-form
These whitewashed walls hypnotize,
I am thinking pretty thoughts now.

I have given birth to a ball of clay,
shot straight from my uterus--
yellow pills, blue pills
yellow pills
blue

I press my face against the rusty screen
and tell him I'm afraid

I am afraid I am going to live.

Reason for writing:

    The reason: "Prozac Nation" by Elizabeth Wurtzel    

Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1996-10-23 08:01:29
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:39:05
Poem ID: 45876

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