I have lost a piece of myself that was never real all the good memories were corrupted nothing is what it seemed all progress fell down the precipice into rubble at your feet which you stepped on trying to get away I search my mind for thoughts that don't make me sad but there are none to be found everyone says that time heals all wounds but why won't mine I don't even want you anymore your cowardice repulses me but stll I long to be held again to feel the warmth of another the connection to not feel so alone logic tells me that the odds are in my favor for finding someone new but how will I know he won't be you how will I know he won't steal more of my soul how will I know he can love me like I want and need to be loved for me that wasn't good enough for you your silence cut far deeper than anything you could have said now I hide behind drollery and sarcasm no one can hurt me for my words are sharp and they slash before being slashed night I crave sometimes sweet oblivion but then at other times dread for when I close my eyes you are there taunting sneering lying or to my horror speaking the truth and that is what tears me up the most the truth how many times did you hate the sight of me wanted to leave me simultaneously telling me you loved me just like your father how you would hate to hear that all those years of felling safe adored cherished were bullshit anger indignation outrage wells up from deep within me it makes me strong I never thought I would be alone again I never thought a lot of things until now I never thought I could hate you but I do
Reason for writing:
Obviously, I went through a bad breakup of which I'm still reeling from. Basically this is your
typical pain and heartache poem. I just felt I needed to write it down and this is what I came up with.
A cleansing of the soul to an anonymous audience.
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