I Am

by Isabel - Not entered

I Am
The quiet tremor of the rain sounds like bullets in my ears
The dew that drops onto the grass is really the tears in my mind
The trees that quiver in the wind sound like the souls of the hungry trembling with thirst
The violent quakes that rack my body is really the thunder of the sky
I am the rain, for my tears water the world
I am the dew, delicate in my heart
I am the wind, my breath that escapes from my lips
I am the quakes, my body shakes with pain
I am the thunder, my voice tries to be heard
The flowers hide in the soil
In the dirty crap of my past
The beauty is gone from their faces, from their rose petals
The silkiness has withered into brittle bones
They weep with the world that begs
I am the flowers
I am the petals
I am the silkiness, do you see the difference?
All this is true
The sun doesn’t shine on their face-
   It doesn’t make them glow with Grace
The Grace that has escaped me
The delicacy of heart-
   Of emotional pain
The fingers dance on my belly
Always looking too fat
Do you know how it feels?
The obsession possesses my body
Digging deeper into my soul
It’s harder to stop now
The missing of New York
The missing of myself
The missing of willpower to stop myself
I am the pain that you feel
I am the joys that never show themselves to my face
They only pop up once in a while
I hope they come back soon
I am the love in your eyes
I am the heart that won’t stand being broken
I am the joke that gets laughed upon
I am the life you’ve never lived
Could I take your shoes?
I am the depression you cannot see
I am the insanity of my mind
I am the reality and the truth
I am the delicate being too fragile to break-
   Too fragile to touch
Please don’t break me
I won’t live much longer.

E.B.
										9/13/96

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Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1997-05-21 21:49:17
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:39:28
Poem ID: 47175

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