Thoughts of Suicidal Sleep

by Isabel - Not entered

Forsaken
Love the only regret
Tears slipping down
Beauty uglified
Fatness made bigger
Dying life is dead
To be with you
    that is my only wish
Union
Disbelieving that it is true
That I could be for real
Yes I do
Understand it
Love lingers
Pain numbed
Suffering under your gaze
Need
    to be with you
Expression in the highest way
You have informed me
Life
    what is left
Nothing
Only my death
Roses dead with faded red
    dried drops of blood
Blood that has dripped from my wrist
Collecting in a pool
Ocean
    calling me
My suicidal tendencies
Sand above my feet
Buried underneath
Drowned in my love for you
Overwhelming as it seems
Can you ever forgive me?
Patience
    what I lack
Time passes
I can't stand it
Everything slow
Come to me
And learn me
Study my dismal heart
Touch my trembling body
    linger on
Lightning strikes
    I am hit
Ecstasy on the brink
The brink of my faded happiness
No more blades
    ripping apart my wrists
No more dullness
    shredding me
No more life
    killing me
Your touch shivers
Bring me up
I want you too
I accept the invitation.

May 30, 1997

Reason for writing:

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Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1997-05-31 11:48:26
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:39:30
Poem ID: 47304

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