All is dead within me For I am dead Physically and emotionally I’m gone, trapped I float through the world Waiting for the ghosts to come whisk me away Away to Hell for centuries Where I forever burn Forever dead Feeling nothing Nothing ever feeling Spirits whisper in my ear There is no return No escape for me Dead roses in my cracked hand Brittle butterflies in my mouth Nothing moves No wind, no help Nothing to shove me along Dead - as dead as I’ll ever be I could become even more dead I’m the beginning of my end to Death I’m not missed Not even noticed - never was No love lifted me up Not even a slight oomph, a nudge No sweet smelling scent gave me a boost I died Forever gone Stuck, trapped between both worlds One wasn’t better than the other Life was worse than this hell Lucifer is my company I like the silence best No friends here Just the enemies I never made I miss nothing, nobody Nothing misses me Hit, killed, raped my heart was raped My head was hit My soul was killed I’ve lost the meaning of their purposes Why does it matter when you’re dead? It doesn’t, that’s why Nothing ever mattered I won’t allow it too Matters cause problems Life becomes suicidal And death. . . it’s all you will feel Do you want to join me? I bet no one will I’m the freak, the loser I hate myself as I have always never had reason to hate you Comprehension is beyond my control Dead life sucked away through the tube now filled with my shit Broken back from the burden the load I like to carry No help to the ones I thought I was giving it too. I have no purpose There is no love No roses to sing me a sweet, tender song Thorn in my pride Sticking out from my shrunken heart Everything is dead All the world, all hopes, all dreams I’m dead And no one is suffering along with me No! That is not true. Goodnight forever. Forever in my grave My eyes are shut I won’t let the tears escape I won’t let them see See the real, depressed me They cannot Facades are fading, gone They died along with me No more fake happiness to express No more precious lies For I’m gone Forever. . . All has disappeared for good Eternity has appeared to me I cannot see the light Love has not come, shown through I will attempt to wait. Let me brace myself. May 28, 1997
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