My parents gave me the ambition. It's one of the many things that scare me, Yet makes me feel as powerful as their Voices, blended together forming tears. I told a couple of my friends And they said it was okay to cry But now i feel all open and dry And so empty and cold and barren inside. They asked if I was all right. Stared in my eyes. Unable to think of what else to say I was never right in the first place. (I stop with The American Dream I never owned a ring I didn't lose anyways. I know nothing of substance and bind and if, I'll run away just in time.) I always liked life Before age seven. But then rejection and shoves and slaps and punches and fists and mouths and pain... All i can think of is never, never. Have you ever seen your father slam your mother's head against a heavy wooden door over and over again? I have. The lock and handle grinding into her skull. Blood and a black eye the morning after. I was eleven. What the hell is love in the first place? I had no friends, instead I cheated and got in trouble at school. I thought i had lost everyting, so who cares? The following evenings were much the same. I tried so hard to make them stop. But I owned no power. I was only eleven. I came to a draw And vowed the only way I could survive was by never letting that happen to me. So I sit quietly, numb. Watch everything I am turn to shit. I fall helplessly, willingly. My inherent and obsessive sadness, a few books, the endings of a chain letter, and a trifle of acquaintances Is all I have now. It's funny how things tend to work out. I stand with empty hands and searching eyes Wearing only my past on my back, strapped, unwilling ever to let go With a thumb stuck out toward nothing.
Reason for writing:
I wrote this poem only a little while ago when I told two of my best friends about the domestic violence I had witnessed when I was younger. I'm currently fifteen and my family is still together, but we're thankfully growing old. I wrote this poem for my own catharsis, but hopefully, dueling parents out there might think twice about shoving such a terrible thing in their children's faces. Obviously, it doesn't help much, myself being a great example.
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