I suffer in silence and cry these invisible tears. I wonder and wait, forever tortured by my secret fears. My arid heart longs to be freed of this painful weight. But I feel that I have fallen too hard and it may be late. For you cannot erase the stain of love on your soul. Its massive burden seems to eternally sear the heart like a burning coal. He seems to forget how much I care. He's forgotten about the extraordinary connection we share. He leaves me confused of his thoughtless ways. He seems to be lost in a mindless daze. Though I fear I will lose him, his careless actions augment my rage. And I cannot bear being confined to this internal cage. But still I crave his deceitful embrace. My vacancy seems to cover Love's worn, gentle face. I am never satisfied and continually beg to bear a part in his life. Instead I am disappointed in what once was joy, has now become strife. Yet still I invite his misleading devotion. And I will still endure the harsh aversion of my emotion. For everytime I foolishly believe I have subdued his strong hold, I am thrust back into reality. And my heart remains cold.
Reason for writing:
I wrote this about one of my old long-distance boyfriend's. Now I'm over him and with the sweetest guy in the world, Alex. No bad poems about him :) The guy I wrote about in this poem is also the same guy from my other poem, Fire.
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