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by Bridgette* Cancer - Not entered

I really wish I could apologize to my friends,
for I made a really huge mistake.
But they'll never be able to forgive me again,
and every day of my life now I'll have to be fake.
I will act happy so no one will worry,
but how can I live with this misery?
Every night since that night has been so blurry,
and I've been wondering how this can be.
When I awoke in the hospital I asked where they were,
and they told me not to worry about them right now.
So I didn't, because they were okay, of that I was sure,
but now I am just asking myself how.
I don't remember very much of that night,
but I remember being pressured to drink.
That still, though, doesn't make it right.
Now my decision I wish I could rethink.
I remember getting in the car,
and telling my friends to come on.
But we never even got very far,
and now my closest friends are gone.
I wish I could take it back!
It should've been me who died back there!
Now I have a burden and I'm cut no slack.
I wish I could tell my friends I really care.
I only drank a few drinks,
but my friends will never breathe anothere breath.
And of that night I am forced to think,
and always remember I caused their deaths.
Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1997-10-02 20:42:35
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:39:44
Poem ID: 47975

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