I'm holding back the tears, and hiding all my fears. I act like I'm oh just so happy, But really I'm just living in misery. I can't help but hide it, and I try my hardest to fight it. The way I handled my problems with you, and the way they made me feel so blue, makes me wonder if that was the right thing for me to do. I'm holding back the tears, and jumping around, acting stupid and yelling out joyful cheers. But really, inside I wish I'd die, and I wish I could just lay my head on a shoulder and cry. I knew you were cheatin' on me, and after one thing, my virginity. You weren't after just one little kiss. And thats why I don't understand why I'm sad over this. As I look in the mirror I wonder who I am, It doesn't look like me anymore, I just don't understand! The girl I'm staring at just isn't me, I sit and wonder who else could it be? It is the girl you fell for, The girl in which I don't know anymore. I've thrown away my life and locked myself inside, Because from you and my feelings I want to hide. I'm holding back the tears, and shattering all the mirrors. From now until the image of me returns into the mirror, I'm gonna sit here and hold back this one little tear.
Reason for writing:
Damn Guy Problem. The problem is kinda explained in
the poem.
Birth sign: Taurus
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