There is a feeling inside me that no one else knows of
It's an unusual feeling like no other in many ways
It makes me smile in gratefulness
And seems to pierce my heart like a sharpened dagger
All at once
It's familiar happiness and gruesome heartbreak
In perfect sync
It's like a dramatic symphony with black-tainted instruments
That plays on and shows no signs of ending
It teases and torments
Every sense of hope my soul contains
It's a peaceful ballad with acoustic melodies
And a gothic tune filled with heart-wrenching chords
All in the most natural harmony
It seems to flow through my veins like cool and soft running water
Yet it burns with primitive fire,
Raging and multiplying throughout every vacant and hollow corner in my
mind
An odd sensation of comforting terror
It excites me in the worst way
It gives me a reason to live,
Yet it kills me
This feeling controls my every thought...
My every move
And seems to consume me
I can neither create it nor conquer it
I can only surrender...
And I have
It was like selling my soul to this strange feeling
Which grows inside of me as each day goes by
I despise it,
But it feeds me and nurtures me
This feeling has no name or simple definition
Not that I have discovered yet
It has followed me all my life and has been with me
Like an abusive lover
You love so dearly but hate severely
At the same time
It's almost like a presence
Heaven and hell
Euphoria and pain
In one distinct being
It's the strangest addiction you could imagine
It's the beginning of the end of my life
And the end of the beginning
In the same moment
And if I ever chose to escape it
I would never be the same
The feeling tortures me and traps me
And leaves me in agonizing awe
Nevertheless, it hurts
And even worse...it's real
Reason for writing:
This poem let me vent so many emotions I had bottled up inside of me... for me it shows more than any other poem I have written
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