to what we shared...i'll still hold on.

by kelli bircket (Aries) - Not entered

if i can't have you,
i'll still hold on
to what we shared, 
though now it's gone.
i love you,
but you don't love me.
why can't things happen?
why can't things be?
i'd hoped somehow 
that things would change.
my heart's dissapointed, 
but i'm to blame.
i knew the way 
you cared for me,
was not how i 
would like it to be.
you said before 
that we'd never work,
now i feel 
like such a jerk.
you said we're friends, 
and we'll always be.
but i want more, 
can't you see?
i knew this would happen, 
i told you it would.
how could i believe 
that this could be good?
i can't have you, 
so i took what i could get.
hoping that you'd realize,
for eachother, we are ment.
you told me we'd be closer, 
and maybe we are.
but a different close, i wanted, 
yet it seems so very far.
you said you care for me, 
doesn't that mean alot?
somehow i thought it did, 
still i hold on to what i got.
you never made a promise, 
and i didn't even care.
i thought surely you'd fall for me, 
after what we'd share.
why didn't i listen to you?  
you told me straight out.
i went ahead pretending, 
your words, i seemed to doubt.
i hoped that 
once you shared with me,
you'd fall in love 
so helplessly.
but things remain 
like you said,
and i can only 
dream love in my head.
if i can't have you,
my dream is gone.
so to what we shared, 
i'll still hold on.
Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-02-12 22:59:34
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:39:59
Poem ID: 48791

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