Bittersweet Tears of My Heart

by danielle - Not entered

the smooth, unsuspecting blade lies beckoning before me
its dull greyness cathes my tear blurred eyes with its quiet gleam
the jagged sharpness reminds me of a rough pain i once felt
a pain i'd rather forget
i stare at my transparent, vein streaked wrist,
thinking of a pain i'd rather feel,
blood i'd rather see,
scars which almost cut my soul
It screams at me,
words that are forbidden to have meaning
it needs me to numb the darkness around my heart
to use it
abuse it
satisfy its need to cut
i pick it up and savour it's texture in my pale hand
i press it to the smoothness of my skin
and as my miserable emotions come together,
i sweep it across my flesh in one quick, painless motion
colours pour from my wound, 
and as the blood spills forth with surprising, but satisfying speed,
i realize i may never have to experience this pain again

**danielle marie lesperance**
Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-02-17 23:38:46
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:00
Poem ID: 48839

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