time heals

by towbe-capricorn - Not entered

they said we're sorry
i had heard this before
but i was so young then
it certainly didn't have the same effect
before i didn't understand

honey - you weren't meant to have children
hold on to the one you have
and hold him dear in your heart

i didn't want anymore children
i was too scared
i was so sick for so long
now that i have lost this precious little life
that little girl

it wasn't anything you did
she never had a chance
your body just rejected her
honey - it was you or her
and he needs you
he's here already
you should be thankful
she's in heaven now
no pain - no suffering
where she will always be young and beautiful
maybe she's the angel 
the one you've been needing and wanting for so long

i just couldn't believe my ears
they were burning with anger
how could anyone
anyone 
say all those things
to someone that they do not know
someone they really don't know

i know how you feel
it's devastating

they have no clue
absolutely not a clue in the world
how it is to feel this way
to have something taken from you
something you didn't even think you were capable of
then to find out it wasn't really there
not in the full sense

there are no words to make it better
time heals









Reason for writing:

    i wrote this while i was very hurt and angry in hopes that
it would begin a healing process about two years ago.  it 
seemed like nothing anyone said or did made it better.  but
being able to write about the pain i was in was a great 
release.  for anyone who has ever lost, i really do know
how it feels, these words are real, you are all in my
thoughts.  take the time you need, for me the only thing
that has helped is time.    

Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-03-06 10:18:27
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:03
Poem ID: 48989

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