Ages of Wisdom

by Vicky Rudd / Taurus - Not entered

When I was six
The world revolved around me
Or so I thought
And that was all that mattered.
Fat, fuzzy worms
Plucked off of leaves
Soft, warm kittens
Stolen from their mothers' care
Everything was mine for the taking
So I took.
I was selfish at six.

When I was twelve
My life erupted into a living
nightmare.
One moment, a happy child,
But in the blink of an eye,
All of that changed permanently.
The illusion shattered
And it became just that--
an illusion...
of happiness, of comfort, of normality.
Confusion, disorientation, and terror
Were to be my companions that year.
But I was tenacious at twelve.

When I reached eighteen
Once more I was flying high
Ready to embark on the next leg of my journey
And to finally put behind me
The gaps that had appeared
In an otherwise stellar mind.
Sadly, I will never write my memoirs
There is too much missing
Too many rememberances 
that evolved out of hear-say
because they disappeared from my memory.
But I was on the road
to creating new memories
And I was exuberant at eighteen.

Now I am twenty-four.
Divorce and surgery 
have been my bed-fellows,
As have graduation and employment.
All of which have culminated in discovery.
For every down
There is an equal up
As long as you are willing to hold on tightly
During the plunge.
I am living at twenty-four.
Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-03-30 23:54:31
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:07
Poem ID: 49194

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