I always seem to find myself in foolish situations, always filling my mind full of disillusions. Whatever happened to sensible, down to earth reality? For my life has fallen into one big fantasy. I have made myself believe in the unbelievable and used so much strength reaching for the unreachable; and I often find myself lying face down on the ground- when I find a dream I wanted; a nightmare I found. Yet I never learn, I always stand back on my feet and dream some more, and forget the pain of yesterday (for that was before). Will I let myself continue this way? so foolishly, or one day will I alas have the gift to face reality? I have always placed reality's pain into the deepest of my heart, and on this pain I shut the door, thinking in my life pain will have no part. But slowly, I feel my heart filling with bitter rage, as it is starting to turn back, painfully , page after page. I was confused and hurt earlier today, but that pain too was pushed away; and tomorrow I will only dream up another fantasy- until it too , strikes out truthfully at me. Who knows, maybe one of my dreams will come true someday, and all the other dreams and pains will fade away, but until then, fantasy will lead me into my tomorrows and give me the strength to carry on, until I can let go.Birth sign: Not entered
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