My Angel

by Jada Andrews - Capricorn

Hello, my angel.
It's been so long since we last spoke. 
So much has happened to me.
Good and bad.
I just don't know what to do with myself anymore
My emotions confuse me.
I love, but I have no one to love.
I long, but no one to long for.
I need, but am never fulfilled.
I wake up every day, with no particular reason.
I go about my daily business…as always,
Repetitive to no end. 
I wave to people I see in the halls, 
But seem to blend somehow into the wall,
Because they don't seem to notice me.
I go home to the same house,
Same night after lonely night. 
Oh, my angel, why not me?
With everything I have to offer someone…
Why can no one love me? 
I would walk a thousand miles,
Write a thousand poems, 
Buy a thousand roses,
Or just sit and stare into his eyes all night,
If he wanted.
But there is no he
And I don't see anyone lining up 
To take on his place…

My angel, you must have been pretty busy lately,
I've needed you by my side a quite a bit.
To light my way along this road,
The night threatening to take me,
And lose me in the dark.
In my eternal night, you are the only thing
I have to light my way.
Oh, my angel, I don't know what I would do
Without your light.
One day I shall thank you,
I'm sure.
But for now, I struggle to keep myself
From losing you completely…
I'll thank you for my life later,
When I finally look back on it
And truly see what you've done.
But for now, I only have the time
To weep, and wish I was ok again.
Please help it be ok again.
You're the only one who can.

Please…

-Jada Marie Andrews
6-10-98

Reason for writing:

    I started it one night, and found it half finished.  So I 
completed it...it's just a thought that came to mind...    

Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 1998-06-11 13:37:41
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:19
Poem ID: 49852

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