misunderstood

by *sweetheart* - Not entered

why am i misunderstood,
 you say that i am so lucky, 
i do not see this opinion of yours
i desperately want you to see
the way i feel is beyond misery
beyond pain and scarring hate
look beyond my exterior
and you see my horrible trait
i can't hide behind these lies anymore
can't cower in behind
see who i am for real
but the truth will make you blind
i'm sorry to have deceived you
i took your trust away
but never again say i have it all
when i don't want to live to see light of day

Reason for writing:

    i am far from having it all together. there is so much pain involved that no one can see, and it kills me inside to have people say i am lucky, i just don't understand how they can see it that way. i am truly a joke, i feel i am living a lie.    

Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-06-12 01:12:27
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:19
Poem ID: 49859

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