A cold rain

by Soonergrrll*cusp of prophecy* - Not entered

A cold rain…--MC
How many times have I thought about you?
I don't think I could count them
Constantly in my thoughts, in my heart all times
Your eyes, your touch, your silly ways sometimes
You loved another, I still stood by your side
Always had open arms for you, never betrayed your trust
Cried broken hearted tears all over my pillow, 
Wiped them from my face with my sleeve…
Sat in the window the other day looking at the rain..
Every drop seemed to come in slow motion,
I could see if fall and land, spreading itself thin
That's what I feel like I am doing, 
Spreading thin, trying to be something for everyone
Wanting to just be loved again…at all.
Maybe I failed myself, believing things were perfect
Looking through the glass I see my life laid out
A different mask for every occasion
Someone new with every conversation
My spirit feels tired and worn
Turning away from the window, I see your picture
It reminds me of childhood, when we were protected
Safe from most harm and most evil…
Realizing I don't know how to let you go
Always wanting you in my life
The thought of you makes me safe,
But is there more than just a thought…
Is there anything deeper than a few words here and there?
I know I can't be with you, I do what I have to do to go on
You can't save me, only I can…the thought scares me more than anything
Angels watch over souls, crows keep them safe…when your heart is lost…
Who is the nightwatchman of love?
Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-08-06 22:32:22
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:28
Poem ID: 50333

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