I wonder sometimes if you even know what you have done these past few years. I wonder if you even remember what this whole thing is even about. I wonder if you care to know what is going on in our lives. I guess we will never know, at least I won’t. I won’t know because I have lost the ability to care anymore. I won’t shed any more tears over you, I won’t think about what you are doing on certain days, I won’t ponder what it felt like to have a grandfather. Why should I bother doing any of those things, if you don’t care to do the same for me? why should I give a damn about what you have to say about the things I do. Its sad...you are sad. A man who is too stubborn and mean to realize that he is the only grandfather to two children. The only one we have. The only one we have who doesn’t care about us. Hiding behind your wife and mother, hiding behind your problems, hiding behind your upbringing. Acting like a fool, like a child, acting like a heartless man. I have no respect left for you, i have no love left for you only disgust and anger. I never care to see you again, i never want to breathe the same air. Three years have gone by, I can’t even remember the real reason you are the way you are. Maybe you were always that way, but i made excuses for you saying, “It’s just the way he is” I am not going to make excuses anymore. My pain is too great to care what you do, my heart broke hundred of days ago Your presence was once welcome your voice a reminder of family but now the mention of your name only makes my heart break and my anger flame. Maybe you will one day be a happy man maybe one day you will see the error of your ways, probably not. If that day ever does come, don’t call me, I will only hang up Do not come by my house, I will only shut the door Do not write me, I will only send back the letter... Grandfather was once what you were to me, now it's only a title..
Reason for writing:
My grandfather destroyed a relationship with his eldest grandchildren, his eldest son and daugher in-law. A stubborn, blind, greedy, cheap man. I never thought I would write a poem like this about anyone, I have written many times about my mother, our relationship is rocky. I never realized that a man could be so ignorant and stupid. He is my only living grandfather, and the only grandfather that I ever had a relationship with, now that is lost. Three years ago, he said some things about me and my mother, accused us of rather idiotic things while visiting our home. Now we don't even really remember what started it all. The whole situation was blown out of control. He wants us to apologize for things we never did, my mother will not apologize and neither will I. My father stands behind both of us, though inside he cries b/c he had just begun to have a real relationship with his father again after many years. To those who read this, remember this poem, remember what I have said, and remember blood is thicker than any arguement. Don't ever cause your children, grandchildren, etc.., to feel this way about you and to wonder what its like to have a mother, father, grandfather, etc...
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