Oh how I wish for someone to learn, how its feels to want what I yearn. I ponder the possibility, Then slowly bring myself back to reality. I feel alone, in this world so cold, I doubt I will find someone, with whom I could grow old. This pain I feel, grows more and more, sometimes I wonder what I am here for. What will become of me, later in life, obviously I’m meant to live in strife. The anger that builds from not being understood, is here to stay and here for good. The loneliness that clouds my mind, seems to be the only gold I ever find. I thought I was happy once before, but learned that there must be something more in store. She did not understand, the way I feel, therefore I couldn't tell, if our love was completely real. I miss her yes, but know in my heart, that the only way, is a fresh new start. What to do now, I haven't discovered, but I feel I must keep, my heart covered. For if I love again untrue, then I will have brought hurt upon you. I hope to find someone soon, a relationship that I cannot ruin. One that stands strong, one that won't go wrong. Someone who loves me, without the thought of change, one who cares for me, without a range. No limits on caring and tenderness, one who can touch my face with a sweet gentleness. This emptiness existing in my soul, will soon be gone, that is my goal.
Reason for writing:
The never ending fear of growing old alone without someone who will understand and accept me, hopefully a fear others share as well... heh.. I think. Let me know what ya think
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