THE SUICIDE

by STUMPY - Not entered

As my arm slowly starts to raise up to my head
As my hand holds a gun I wonder what it would be like 
to be dead
As I wonder if every chamber had a bullet in it
As I hear the gun hit the empty chamber I think  oh shit
Is this something I want to do
can I bare not seeing all of you
YES! I can, so I pull the trigger once again
-CLICK-
I brearthe a sigh of relief
But I know I can't go on
so I pull the the trigger
-CLICK, CLICK, CLICK-
All empty, but wait there is one more chamber
might it be full
I slowly raise the gun putting it to my head
My  hand is shaking 
My heart is aching
As my finger presses against the cold metal of the trigger
it is trembling
There is a loud bang
But now is silence and dark
And I am dead
For I blew a hole in my head
I don'tknow if I will go to heaven or hell
But I am free, free at last
No longer can they tell me what to do
or where to go
I am free 
Death has opened the gates and I have stepped through
GO TO HELL ALL OF YOU!!
Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-10-19 22:12:30
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:37
Poem ID: 50835

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