What the Hell

by Sharon - Sag - Not entered

What the hell is wrong with me?
Doesn't anybody see
The way I am when you're around?
Everything I need I've found.

You turn the ideas in my head
From this and that to those instead.
I thought I knew myself so well.
You make it really hard to tell.

I'd like to know if you're aware 
Of all the times I sit and stare
At you and everything you are,
As if you were a distant star.

I wonder if it's all a game.
If to you I'm just a name.
Do you ever dream at night?
Do you think that we'd be right?

I often think that you're the one,
But feel as if I'd rather run, 
Than get involved and find that you're
Just what I've been searching for.

I'm so confused, I'm so upset.
I don't know how I let me get
This wrapped up in you and I.
I want to laugh, I'm gonna' cry.

I'm lost.  Please help me find my way.
And when you do, I beg you'll stay. 
Or maybe not, I just don't know.
Should I stop, or should I go . . .

On with this crazy talk of mine?
All I want to do is find
An answer to my inquiry
Of me and you and us and we.

I wish I might, I wish I may
Make these feelings go away.
I really don't know what to do.
What the hell is wrong with you?

Reason for writing:

    I think we've all had the fear of not only rejection, but also commitment.  Those were the two factors behind this poem.    

Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-11-08 02:51:33
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:40
Poem ID: 51002

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