Forgiveness That I Don't Have

by Megan Aries - Not entered

A friend told me yesterday that I should 
forgive you and only then will I be okay.
I don't think I can. You used up all your
quarters playing Phish songs on the jukebox,
and my slot machines are full, with no room left
for your pennies. How can I forgive you when I
can't even forgive myself? I hate myself for the 
chance I took on you, and I hate myself for 
believing that this could come to anything at all.
I don't even think I hate you anymore, I don't
have hate enough for both of us...I've never been
one to share. Do you think of me as you are
walking down the street? Remembering how we used
to drive on it, singing old songs and just being
content to be around each other? I'm glad there
are no streets around here like that, none of 
these roads know you, they only know me.
Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-11-18 22:22:27
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:42
Poem ID: 51116

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