Crying to No one

by hayley*virgo - Not entered

I stooped to your level
before I knew what I was getting into
and now I can't dig myself up out of
those six feet I need to shed
in order to live again.
I've always said that you make me sick
but i see your insides now better than ever,
and it is not just the smoke that turned your organs black.
How dare you not have the decency to do this to me in private?
This is the second time you have let everyone else know first.
Like it isn't hard enough for me to hear
of these paths you keep chosing,
let alone be told about them by strangers.
And here I am in my bed,
alone between bare, black sheets
thinking about how I now make myself sick.
I let myself become your
mangy little whore,
and I basked in the honor of that even after
I told you we were through.
It hurts to say this,
but I know now that if you don't devote
the rest of your life to that ignorant bitch
then you are the most cowardly person
I know (And loved)
There are no more second chances
for me
and you
and us
but there will soon be an infant
who will need a lot of explaining
and a loving family
and as much as you won't want it
it is what you need to do.
Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1998-11-22 22:27:31
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:42
Poem ID: 51138

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