once I thought - for Grey

by B.Maria ** pisces - Not entered

once i thought
how different my life was
the day you decided
to turn your back and declare
- i love you
  but no more than a friend
the coffee didn't taste the same
the days seemed bleak and tired
the sun felt so cold
to whom shall i talk to
to pour my confusion
to share my pain
every night i cried
every day i sniffed
every dawn seemed like a punishment
every dusk felt like a jest
i thought i'd never healed
from the love i lost inside
i carried your face
and our memory
how could things gone
from one thing to another
in a blink of an eye
now
just don't feel anything
you're not strong enough for me
hatred? no
anger? no
love? no
remorse?...perhaps
i don't think i hate you
you were once very much loved by this person
it would be an insult to myself
i feel sorry
you missed the chance to feel love
for i am now loved by another
how the warmth took over the cold
how the day pushed the night away
don't know how it happened
but i figured i have a long way to go
to understand that for you
i am not enough
or maybe too much
maybe you're afraid of my presence
i might overwhelm you
you might drown
i don't know
i already forgot
what i once thought...........
Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1999-02-16 08:18:08
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:54
Poem ID: 51822

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