My Issues

by Megan Aries - Not entered

Can I ask you something? What is it about me
that repulses you? Is it how I hold my fork,or
the way I write my poems? Is it something I can
fix, or did it roll over and die like
it never existed. You crawl into my thoughts,
forcing your way in, like pushing your way in
on a crowded bus, shoving away thoughts of
commitments, taxes and friends to make room
for yourself. I feel as though my grace has
left me, and I am once again a small girl,head
down, being everyone's bitch. I am not falling
to my knees for you, but for the death of us.
Today I will save myself and put you to rest
in the cemetery that is my mind. The songs that
you sung to me are dissapating like a fading
symphony to a falling spirit. Today will be 
better, but even the white chocolate caremel
cappiccino sitting in front of me doesn't make
me hurt any less. Its over, Megan, Its over.
Deal with it...

Reason for writing:

    My constant stuggle with pain in general. Hey, I miss everyone, thank you for all your support, sometimes I really feel like my poems suck!! Meg    

Birth sign: Not entered
Date created: 1999-02-23 11:30:54
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:40:56
Poem ID: 51884

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