“So long”,. you said and I thought my heart would break…. For a while I seemed to have lost it, for a moment…. I couldn’t find my heart of hearts, I have it… And it isn’t broken… I thought my world crumbled… It was shaky, chaotic….but it didn’t go to pieces… I thought I lost the biggest part of me…. Half a soul, half a spirit, half a mind, half of me…. Couldn’t very well do, I thought I was half of myself… I thought I was lost forever, then like new things that come…. There are other parts and other dimensions Of me, I am me, I am whole again… I thought like a thousand times before, there was something more To love, to feeling, I believe in its truth, in its kindness…. I know there is a lightness in everything, I know when there is love….. I thought maybe there never was this time….. Maybe it was excitement confused or an urgency we couldn’t define…. Or an illusion we chose to create, maybe we were both lonely…. Life was the same everyday…or we got tired of the monotony…. Maybe we were looking for something different… Something that didn’t exist, something out of the ordinary…. Maybe we both were in search of love…at the same time… Maybe this is all a mistake…. For if you loved me, I thought, it wouldn’t be like this…. There would only be hello’s and goodnights…. Not so long or goodbye….. There would only be differences and adjustments to make… Never drastic changes…. There wouldn’t be tests or threats… There wouldn’t be any games played to measure the depth of your importance… there wouldn’t be any charades…. There would only be a knowing, a silent assurance of each other’s feelings… There would always room for us to grow, to breathe…. To find ourselves, to find each other, to find me, to find you…. Never a need for space to find you alone…. For if you loved me, I thought, there would only be a desperation… To always be near me, be by me, there would only be a wanting…. To be together…. There wouldn’t be a need to go off on your own…. There wouldn’t be any reasons or excuses… There wouldn’t be anything that would keep you away… If there was love, we would think of nothing else but each other… There would be trust, never a moment of doubt, Never a need to doubt, never a need to test or weigh things…. If there was love, it wouldn’t be like this….. There would only be us, no him no her, there wouldn’t be any other…. The past wouldn’t make a difference, it wouldn’t mar the present…. Yesterday would only strengthen today, it would only make it More beautiful, more precious…..it would make Tomorrow the best…. So, maybe, this is goodbye or so long…. For if there was love…I would only be saying hello…… Danielle McHenry
Reason for writing:
In celebration of surviving a relationship...for those who have been left behind....those who were given the goodbyes....and those whose hearts were broken...This is for all of us, survivors of a broken heart!
Birth sign: Aquarius
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