Lived in fear Day by Day Looked over my shoulder To be sure you weren't coming my way Looked at the caller I-D Before answering the phone Trembled in fear When i was alone I always asked myself Where you could be... In my closet? Behind a tree? If you only knew All the people who now know I f you only knew I'm now not scared to let go you can think you're intimidating And let yourself believe i live in fear I know the truth, and i'm not And I most definetly don't need you here I hid in fear But i'm finally coming out You treated me like a possesion But that's not waht i'ma bout You slapped me Dying me down You yelled at me While throwing me to the ground You laughed at me Lowering my self esteem You told me i had no choice But to fulfill your dream I had to be fake Now who i wanted to be I was everything you wanted Everything but me If i disobeyed You'd let me know You'd stoop to any level No matter how low I should've left you sooner But i was scared I threatened too many times But you said i wouldn't if i really cared I had to lie to my friends And tell them we weren't a thing I dated other guys To make it more believing Then i finally left you You were both mad and sad But i no longer cared And i didn't feel bad You came back after me After about 1/2 a year And told me things I like to hear BUt it didn't work Becuz now i know I don't ahve to be what you want me to be Or a good for nothing hoe
Reason for writing:
I'm finally coming out w/ things... and it feels good... well i might as well enjoy the feeling of feeling good while it lasts... but once he finds out i'll be lucky if i live through the beating i will recieve...
Birth sign: Scorpio
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