I felt oddly alone When I had so many people around me My walls were caving in My heart was bleeding and no one knew I felt I had to suffer And I'd never find another like before But I was wrong... I had known him awhile And his heart was always unavailable And when it wasn't I was too shy because I thought I meant nothing to him I could never be his Time passed and we became closer and closer but I got less and less letters from him I was sick all the time because I missed him so much Something he never knew about, still doesn't He didn't need to know He loved someone else, and then...lost her I felt so worthless I couldn't help him and comfort him I didn't want him hurting at all I loved him, more than I should, and I couldn't hug him and tell him I did So, I kept it inside my heart It wasn't too much of a big deal, I only loved him (a little crush I thought) I wasn't IN love with him Then, tradedy occured I, not willingly, was taken advantage of Not knowing what to do I told him and asked him not to tell anyone Him, madder than hell, told me I didn't know what I was doing asking him not to tell anyone I apologized to him and begged him not to tell anyone But, he did.... I went down stais, my dad was sitting at the computer in total shock I glanced at the computer screen and I saw numerous messages from him and my brother I sighed in pain and broke down and cried I waited by my screen, for 3 hours Waiting for some contact from him Finally, at 1 in the morning I saw a message on my screen from him He apologized for telling, but he couldn't stand them getting away with what they did and hoped I wasn't mad at him for telling my father I, still in shock, shaking, and tired agreed with him He told me he would always he here for me, and I thanked him And, with that, he asked me to go to bed so I could get rest Since then, we have gotten closer but one day... I got a Cd me made for me (he sent it in the mail) I was listening to #11 and relaized...I WAS in love with him Not knowing what else to do I broke down and cried The next day I couldn't take it anymore, him not knowing how I felt I sent him a message telling him how I felt about him I cried in all my classes, I was so scared of losing him I would die if I did, he meant everything to me I walked home slower than normal Fresh tears in my eyes I got on my computer...I didn't hear from him But finally he came on He seemed happier than normal And then he told me,...that he loved me too We both cried, and were in shock for the next few days And now, we are together And we both cried when he had to leave And planned our wedding and kids names together He stole my heart And I stole his Our love was made in heaven, and will last forever But we came together though the hard times we both went though Him to scared to tell me he loved me, and me to scared to tell him and the tragedy that occured to me So if your life is hard And you want to die, don't give up!! Something good will come out of it eventually Even when it seem nothing good could come out of it Something will, it happened it me And will happend to you †‡†‡†‡†‡†‡†‡†‡
Reason for writing:
My reason for this...hmm...to tell everyone that is depressed and sad that something good is coming around the corner!! It may not seem like it, but something will happen. You just need to have faith! That gets you though anything. I'm a living exaple. So don't doubt anything and give up. Keep trying, life wasn't made easy.
Birth sign: Capricorn
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