The Night's Haven Is Always Near

by Trisha Hanudel - Gemini

I need to lie down and rest
Your words and your hate
They hit like bullets
They lodge in my heart

Let me close my eyes
Let me close my mind
It's my only way to escape
From your unending hate

The warm blackness of night
It embraces and protects me
It comforts my fear, dries my tears
You can't hurt me now

Let me close my eyes
So the black fills my emppty shell of a soul
Black and green and blue swirls of hate
It's better than nothing

Sleep will some as I lie
I will escape you for a few hours
I do not want to think of tommorrow
All the hate, fear, and pain you bring to it

Just let me close my eyes
Just let me go numb
Feeling is too great a burden to bear
Please let me sleep forever

Reason for writing:

    I was 12 when I wrote this, I'm 18 now. When I get reminded of it, I do just what I used to do then--wait until night to cry because I believed in the night, that it would protect and somehow shield me from everything. It's been two years since it stopped, and I still cry, just like I used to.    

Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 1999-08-01 02:36:14
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:17
Poem ID: 53054

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