thoughts

by j.c. monterrosa - Capricorn

thoughts
5/10/99
1:45 p.m.


Me.
It’s all about me.
The struggles are my own.
The outcry is my own.
All the pain and anguish
belongs to me.
And I thrust these fists
against mountains made of air
and cry out when I realize
the only ground that crumbles 
is the earth beneath my feet.
So I dust myself and carry on,
afraid to claim failure as my own.
How naive and maybe arrogant
to think I’m the only one
who has ever felt this way.
Alone.
I’ve cast out idols
I’ve been told to believe
and only empty husks of love remain.
So my heart reaches out
to the only thing I’ve ever come close to seeing,
the elusive thought of love,
the elusive thought of you.
Born from fantasies in torn love letters never sent;
from papers crushed between my fingers
as I wished to crush the emptiness within.

Reason for writing:

    still feeling down in Sweden...    

Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 1999-08-28 22:45:55
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:20
Poem ID: 53200

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