Relenting

by Christina - Sagittarius

Glazed eyes in photographs staring beyond me
Windows that put the world in a frame
CD's about things like popularity and cheer
Stacked up in a corner gathering dust
Trash scattered on the streets outside
Also scattered around my room
Retrieved items that once were honored
Mean nothing anymore
Disgust occupies my mind as I glare at the walls
And at the ceiling and floors
Confronted indignities are ever present
Is this my sanctuary or prison, I haven't decided
Perhaps the world will suit me better 
But no esteem or respect is to be found there
Mirror reflects my defeated face
What a fool to neglect instincts so quickly
Flashy opinions prancing around in my head
Fist hits a pillow in my melting rage
Intensify, reinforce and defend yourself, my heart says
My brain says I am an idiot
Somewhere in my head I hear the arguing voices grow louder
"She doesn't belong, rid us
Of this challenging burden"
Why don't I hear any disagreement with that
So my useless scribblings on yellowing paper
Must be nothing but chatter of the mind
If that is how you regard my emotions
So be it
Birth sign: Sagittarius
Date created: 1999-09-07 00:01:36
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:21
Poem ID: 53283

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