compensation for suffrage

by Jennifer - Sagittarius

in character
i am shallow and vain
i am selfish
i believe i should have supreme reign

but as me
i am thoughtful and deep
i am human
three traits i wish to keep

for eighteen years
i was a lie
deep down
wanting to die

i had no peace
i still don't
i never have
i know i won't

i was a mere existance
in a life that was cruel
so now tell me why
i should not have supreme rule

i suffered long enough
i shall suffer no more
i shall take control of this soul
i shall search for my core

i need
i want
i live 
i taunt

i thought
i brought joy
i know 
i was only a decoy

i take the spotlight
off of the lie
i have been used 
i have been denied 

so tell me now
why i should not be cruel
to all of those
who over me have held supreme rule

Reason for writing:

    recently i found out that the man i believed to be my father was in fact not my father, but my stepfather
    

Birth sign: Sagittarius
Date created: 1999-09-21 22:41:44
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:23
Poem ID: 53377

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