Soul Breathe

by dave serratt - Aquarius

Soul Breathe

Sometimes the soul breathes too loud
Too loud to hear ourselves
Time to find who we are
Deep within the lies we never meant
Deep in the truths never to be said
It is a small flame from this candle
But shines brightly in the air
Covers for as far as I can see
Wish we could see as far
Live without hate and envy and pain
To exist only in love
But to my soul a question arises
Who knows where we are
Do we live in love and desire
And can’t see it because our candle 
Flickers too often
Smoke in the air
Vanishes in this night sky
As I wish my past mistakes would do
Shed only happy tears

I reek of my mistakes
Such a vast destruction
On those who deserve neither pain nor misery
As I bite my own bullet
Tear my own flesh
Peering inside
At who I am
But I’m afraid
Yes, the child without tears
Fears his insides
For he has never ventured there
Over the sound of truth
A sound of desperation rings above
Prosecuting me
Trying to destroy me
Never to allow me to venture inside

Through the lies I've created of myself
Under the armor I built around me
Never will I ever feel
As I write top to bottom 
I find who I am
I know what pains deserved
And why they go and leave me here
Consequences dictate that they wither in denial
Deny the pain they have given me
Many years too young to feel all the hate
Hate so abundant in our world

Chained to the past
Dead as ink
Used to create or destroy beauty
Not knowing what I write
Finding puppets are not held by one string
But many
Cutting one string only brings my head down
Unsupported
Sadness because I look at the world below
So far away
I can see myself through all of my strings
A monster inside of me
Kills in my sleep
Awake to find blood on my soul
Blood that won’t wash away
And I won’t try
Each day slicing those I love
Turning pages of dreams
Tearing them out
On the nights end I am covered in dreams
Not mine
No longer pages but books of my misdeeds

Sometimes the soul breathes too loud
Too loud to hear ourselves
Or hear the screams of dying souls


Reason for writing:

    I write because I feel that know one listens anymore and that the youth of today holds so many answers to our problems if we would just listen…

    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 1999-10-15 02:46:07
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:09
Poem ID: 53479

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