I was over my boyfriend's house and remembered what my Daddy said. Daddy told me not to have unprotected sex. So I used a condom instead. I felt secure and safe, the way Daddy said I would. I didn't have any unprotected sex, even though my boyfriend wanted me to. I am positive, I did the right thing. I know my Daddy is right. He always is. He would have preferred for me not to have any sex at all. But, I figure I am old enough to make my own decisions. I returned to my boyfriend's house because love drove me there. My boyfriend knew I would because I was naive and sweet. As we started our next encounter, he pulls out and say, " the condom broke. " I did not know what to think or say because the news shocked me as a whole. As I lay on his bed, I hear my Daddy's word again. "Don't have any unprotected sex baby. Is not safe, it could hurt. " How could this happen to me? My boyfriend took me outside and claimed the raincoat was unable to cover us both. I am laying in bed and nothing to do but think. I can hear my Daddy's words again, " AIDS is an incurable disease, Baby. " I just want to tell Daddy that I swear he used a condom. My boyfriend swears it broke but all I can do is pray and hope. My boyfriend was probably having unprotected sex with other girls. The only difference is, he doesn't care and I do. Why do people have unprotected sex? It can ruin your whole life. I feel I have ruined what I have worked for all my life. My boyfriend is continuing to have sex while I lay here and dwell. I see my siblings cry as they see my hurt and pain. When is time to go, I want to ensure Daddy know, I love him very much. I should have listened to Daddy and not trusted a condom nor the boyfriend I had. If I had been a virgin or even celibate for that night, I would still live to see my child. I am now very ill and my boyfriend continues to go around and play. My boyfriend said, he cared and will always be there for me. But a hospital visit, I still await. My Daddy told me my boyfriend was exactly that, a boy and not a man friend. My Daddy wanted to kill my boyfriend but realized killing him would not make me well. "Baby, speak to me if only for one last time. ", Daddy said. I said to Daddy, If I could ask him a question before I go on my eternal rest. Daddy didn't mind. He wanted me to ask him anything as I rest my loving soul. I used a condom as you said, Daddy. So, why am I the one having to say good bye as I lay in this hospital bed waiting to die?Birth sign: Pisces
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