how can you lose someone you've never had?

by Madeline - Aries

how can you lose someone you've never had?
i lost him
as lovers lose themselves to sun,
as moonbeams make their way back to moon,
like a single second that returns itself to hour,
as a flicker surrenders itself to flame,
   i lost him
   from same to same ...
   this familiar stranger
   who never really said his name.

how can you hurt someone you've never touched?
i am not capable
as he is capable.
i'm a ripple in his puddle,
a bird-song in mid-flight,
racing to meet him in empty corners.
   i could swear
   i can feel him crying.
   he is laughing too hard.

how can you love someone who never was?
i would rather i made him up.
i would rather
we flitted past each other
like two pieces of cosmic dust.
but he had to be the nearest
of a thousand towers
i could have viewed safely from afar.
   so i had to break walls to love him.
   so he gets to watch me
   tear myself apart.
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 1999-12-02 08:37:53
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:33
Poem ID: 53904

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