restless thoughts cross my mind, a deadly chill runs down my spine. I look at my life, and can only wonder why. forsaken by everyone, I am left to die. feeling ignored, I've nowhere to run. I stay to myself, as everyone else has their fun. do they dare invite, a wretch such as me? of course they don't, because I am me. my life is such a waste, no one even cares. why do I even attempt, to show this love I want to share. if I died, hey, no big deal. drop me six feet under, and forget I was ever here. the tears are falling, and they will not stop. I only want a true friend, who will be there, no matter what. some say they are, but it is all a lie. they're only being nice to me, and will rejoice when I die. the pain can get too much, the burden can get too heavy. but I know of no way to rid this mind, of this struggle that is mine. drowning in despair, I know I can't go on. my life I want to end, for it is so very wrong. endless lies flow off their tongues, saying they do care. but not even one can tell the truth, causing me only tears to bear. but I forgive, it's the best that I can do. for I'll never drop to their deceiving level, I'll never forsake like they do. so now I search, for a friend forever true. but by examining these lonely doubts, I know my heart will be forever blue.Birth sign: Capricorn
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