walking alone tonight, the stars my only light. holding no one's hand, drowning in the sand. the time ticks away, I know my days are short. if I could only find someone, whose love would be a fort. I think about the past, o' how the seasons change. what I once thought as love, I now realize as pain. the ripples beat gently at my feet. the saltwater here never misses a beat. my heart is ripped into, I feel I can't go on. my mind tries to reassure, tries to push me on. God's breath plays its melody, and I stand to face it strong. but my heart, tis so weak, another sad love song. I bought into this lie. I bought into this pain. human love can't exist, only love divine. slowly rain begins to fall, as if someone's crying for me. but I know that's impossible, for tears can never be. does no one really care, about this tortured life of mine? can anyone really see, beyond the hands of time? is my life only a game? I don't think it is. because I've only struck out once, yet I'll never bat again. playing with my heart is a hobby of them all. ripping it out, then letting it fall. drenched with rain, I can't honor this pain. it's as if my tortured life, is composed of double strife. I am cold now, but there's no one to keep me warm. the winds of change have blown, and I am left alone. I see the others, yes, they're loved. they seem to take for granted, though, the gifts they're given from above. trust, love, joy, all have been forsaken. pain, abuse, suffering, places that are taken. alas, I am but a fool. happiness in love I'll never see. life will consist of this pain, and of this constant envy. I shall give up for now, retiring my search. for I know an answer will never come, my soul people will always shun. life is over for me, it was awesome for a time. but the winds of change blow no more, and to love someone now would be my biggest crime.Birth sign: Capricorn
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