tears flowing. despair beginning. darkness veiling my emotions. do they see? do they know? can they understand? do they care? they leave me here, in a world of pain. my soon to come death, their ultimate gain. they play the friend, but really aren't. they say they love, but I feel it not. the games they play, drive me insane. the lies they tell, increase the pain. can't they see, the hell they cause? aren't they able, to see past my flaws? solemn thoughts cross my mind. if only I were dead. how that would be fine. I'd be gone from here, where no friends reside, and I'd be with God, who plays no disguise. but the ones that are here. they cannot understand. the anguish they cause, and the pain they demand. I feel forsaken, with no where to run. at times I feel such shame, to them I am no one. what can I do, to relieve this pain? I could never tell them, the way I truly feel. and even if they knew, they wouldn't attempt to heal. the thoughts of me, never cross their mind. to invite me somewhere, will never happen in this lifetime. so here I am, alone again. my thoughts keep me company, for their my only friend. I will always wonder, why so much pain? and I will always contemplate, the rejection and the shame.Birth sign: Capricorn
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