agony

by billysue - Capricorn

is there a life worth living,
that I could possess?
is there any way to murder,
this pain I can't address?
death descends again tonight,
will it ever grace my presence?
hopefully it might.
I stare into the clouded sky,
my thoughts telling me I should die.
the trees have shed their life,
how I wish I could do the same.
the agony of this life,
is driving me insane.
its cold out here,
with no one around.
the words "hey friend"
to me will never be a sound.
my heart is breaking,
and my body is weak.
I fear that for me,
no one will ever seek.
as I sit here alone,
I can see the place she's living.
I only wish she'd understand,
that my love to her would be forever giving.
how I wish she was here,
keeping me warm.
how I wish she would love me,
and save me from the storm.
I need a friend now,
someone to talk to.
but there's no one around,
and I don't know what to do.
should I forget the pain,
and force it away?
or should I ponder the pain,
and face it day to day?
it's impossible to forget,
for that's been my whole life.
but it's even harder to face,
knowing nothing but strife.
so I guess there's only one way out,
and that's to end it all.
I hope everyone is happy,
who contributed to my fall.
Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 1999-12-07 21:57:46
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:34
Poem ID: 53954

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