For The Child

by Reese - Aries

i am the small and faded voice of a child that would of been conceived
if somehow they had managed to stay together.
i am the child that would of been beaten by an abusive father
if they had stayed together.
i would be the child of an alcoholic mother, if my father, had beaten me.
and then i also become a happy child living with a loving family.
with a greatful father who refues to become the father he had
and a mother who wants nothing but the best for me.
she always knew he'd be the perfect dad.
but then she didn't know
my would be mother
didn't know if maybe i'd been born my father would of shot me
and then later killed her.
for my would be father was one filled with rage.
but none of this was able to unfold or take place
for they never managed to stay together.
and the possibilities are endless if they had
but they hadn't.
and i am the small voice of a child that doesn't exist.
i sit here and wtach my would be mother cry in her rocking chair
because he left
and she never cried for the child she could of had
maybe she knew better
she always cried for his pain.
and somewhere i watch my would be father stare out his window
crying also
but not for the child he could of had
maybe he knew better
but he cried for her
and although i knew my tears would never be heard
i cry to
but not for my would be mother
or would be father
but for myself

the child they could of had. -





























Reason for writing:

    My b/f after us being together for a year left because he is a coward and now i'm left simply wondering.........    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 1999-12-12 16:55:13
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:34
Poem ID: 53994

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