Revelations

by skibbler - Aries

Why can’t I live my life like I want to
Why does faith have to play between you and me
But whom am I kidding
I know destiny is laughing
I am only fooling myself 
No one can truly help
As the songs says: I know…I’m in love with you
I know finally this love I have is true

I know you like him more than me
This mere thing brings me to insanity 
Every time you mention his name
My feelings for you are still the same
I envy him for what he has
I try so hard to let it pass
Inside it tears me apart
All I have is a bleeding heart

“Friends” I find it to be stupid
It is a word invented by cupid
You know it kills me inside
All those pain now won’t reside
Tears fall from my eyes when I remember
I don’t have a chance to hold you forever 
And it crushes all of my being
Can’t you see how hard I’m trying

How I wish you are mine to hold
But you don’t seem to get what you’re told
I tried telling it to you once
But you never gave it a chance
I can’t blame you…what’s there to like in me
Everyday I have to face this in reality
I try so hard to hide all this feelings
In each new day’s beginnings











Now I know why I can’t love anyone else
My heart – I love you it tells
I always tell myself tomorrow would be better
Tomorrow I might not even remember
How much pain it is to hide it
I have no more cavern to retreat
I fear that all those things will happen again
I’m willing to go just say when

It’s hard for my consciousness to fool itself
I’m forced to keep it all to myself
Because I know all the pain won’t go
All this I don’t try to show 
I was a fool when I didn’t love you before
Now my heart is bleeding it can’t take more
“Every time I think of you 
My heart, soul, mind, me nothing could do

I envy my older brother 
This was the same thing that bothered
But at least he got what he wanted
All of his wishes were granted
I pity myself, It won’t happen
I pity myself this shouldn’t have happen
But how I know that you are the one
I wish I could have a chance before your gone

I hope you could read this now
And feel the pain I have now
I wish everything would be my way
I wish I had you to stay
But I’m back in reality
It won’t happen to me
I know I love you
So forgive me if I do
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 1999-12-15 04:24:08
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:10
Poem ID: 54037

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