that old red jacket

by katya athena - Aquarius

I saw your red Titanium jacket today
and it stirred all the emotions
that I never knew were inside of me.
I swore I was better off without
and honestly thought I meant it
But then that jacket slapped me in the face
and awoke in the a strange reality
where I'll never be close to it again.

Regardless of the circumstances,
and my endless rationalizations,
that jacket I will miss,
and the body and mind
that exist inside of it
will not be forgotten either.
The emotion they evoke may dwindle,
but the moment and picture
of your red jacket
will stay frozen in my mind.

At this point,
I suppose I should be hostile
or at least regretful,
and yet I feel a sweet calmness
growing inside me all the more.
I won't forget it all
or deny my memories,
Nor will I constantly be aware of you
in an unstable insanity.

You were there, 
and you were real,
and for that, 
I am forever grateful.

Reason for writing:

    I wrote this poem after breaking up with my boyfriend, whom I thought I was over.  The little things, however, would make me realize how far I was from him and I couldn't understand my sadness.  This poem helped my evaluate all that and let him go.    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2000-01-28 18:04:33
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:44
Poem ID: 54514

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