As I take away my eyes

by Rachel Hanson - Gemini

As I take away my eyes
my eyes from which I see
I feel I can see more
more clearly. everything comes into focus

If I took away my heart
as I did my eyes
would it ease the pain?
there would be no pain.
would others hurt?

If only I could see who I have hurt
if he could see how he hurt me
my heart still hurts
my minds says no

Why does it hurt?
do I still love?
did I ever love?
If I did, why did I do what I did?
why am I still doing as I did?

I feel I like someone new
but I know he is not for me
He is loved but not by me
I hurt someone else 
someone I like too

Love is pain
If there was no love
what would there be?

I need stability
yet I need freedom
the two don't unite

There is a third 
but it is
hard

He is frightened
frightened of love, commitment
frightened of me?
perhaps of him.

My first has a new love 
I know it is not love
so does he
perhaps it is to make me hurt
the way I hurt him

It doesn't hurt me
it does hurt me
not that he's with her
just his thoughts
maybe I'm wrong
I hope I'm wrong
I hope he's happy

I'm not.

Reason for writing:

    confusion
    

Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2000-01-30 16:42:16
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:44
Poem ID: 54535

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