To her

by Nubinique - Scorpio

Why should I feel ashamed, because   
           you really belong to me.
     Why I have to hide that I'm your
              natural mommy.
  
    Yes, I made a mistake that I can't fix,   
         but is that a reason for
           everyone to treat me 
              like a bitch.

       I was young and fast in the azz. 
          My mind was full of soup 
            drowning the decision  
            If I should keep you.

      I prayed to God and to the only lady I  
        called Ma "Please don't let my baby   
            fall apart from me now", 
          but she just said I was only
        fifteen, what do I know about
             keeping a baby.
   
    I know when I leave this Earth I'm 
      leaving you alone, Which is one thing I 
           don't want to do to anyone.
   
       Let me breath just one more time,
        I really need to hear you cry. 
          Here you are in a world so 
          cold with no true mother to 
               call your own.
     
       Don't wait until the end!" something a
        friend said, but she doesn't know the 
          whole story. I do thank her for  
            trying to be comforting, but 
            she can't help the empty.

          Well, before I can move on I say
              must say three words. 
         I know might not seem like much or
            seem like they mean anything 
          at this point, but I want you to
                   know that... 
                "I'm your mommy." 

Reason for writing:

    I'm only 19, but at the age of fifteen I had a baby girl. I was in foster care and the lady I live with told me that she wouldn't take care of the both of us, so I gave her up  after 3 months. I also gave up my rights and now I don't know how she is or where she is and I just had to say something about it.    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2000-02-02 18:29:50
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:45
Poem ID: 54593

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