thoughts of my toothache and emma stiches

by emma stiches - Cancer

Thoughts of my Toothache		11/26/99

You are my daily
Subliminal toothache,
For the past two days,
I stay in my room like 
A hotel I pay myself a visit.
I adore your human triumph,
To let me do that,
But I hate you for it.
I feel so gross now, 1 to 10,
I’ll hate myself more because of you.
My hole, the one he created,
Is bigger, and hurts more,
You fucker, I hate you!
I want to crucify you,
You’re a sick rabid dog, my gluey white tooth.

Emma Stiches			12/3/99

I have dead roses in my room,
They help me stitch
Up my brain.
He ate me like a piece of candy.
Now, he’s gum,
 on the bottom of my shoe I can’t get rid of him.

My kids will wonder;
“ Why I fall in dead love affair?”
and my solemn response:
“ Why? I’m broken like your bicycle,
	dead like my flowers,
I cant live without them,
	I’m just cheating myself.”

They’ll want me to shut him up, 
Pull me out,
“But baby, I cry all the time!,
	leave me alone,
I want to ask him a question,
24 hours, dead roses, and 
maybe punk rock?”

We’ll all sleep on a mattress on the floor.
It’ll be our world, together.
“I love my kids,” I tell myself,
“I wish he loved me too”
and the city will be our home,
“ Go  to sleep, babydoll, I love you.”

Reason for writing:

    an hour after i found out my segnificant other (then) can't get it up. i cried and thought it was my fault, i ran to damien he told me is ok...    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2000-02-02 22:36:48
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:46
Poem ID: 54609

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