Secondhand Sunshine

by J James - Pisces

3:00 came right on time tonight
but ironically the sunlight
remains outside
at anytime of day in
this corner of the room
the only light i see is 
the flickering one of the TV
blurry images that wouldnt 
make sense to me even if i had
two pairs of glasses on
the table dripping from the 
condensation of hell freezing over
That and all the rest of the nonsense
made more sense i was a child
because parents openended threats
rendered me senseless
relentless is the feeling of
trying to extend these four walls
so i can reach outside this room
growing smaller and darker
the more my head gradually indents
the wood paneling on my wall
the more i need recreation
that doesnt involve anything
within my chair's reach 
this leech of motivation
has left me motionless
and the scent of 3 day old discontent
still lingers when i open my drawers 
the more i pace in the middle of
awakening temptation to weep
for the pain i'm not accustomed without
the more i bout with the 
unfamiliar sensation to 
breathe in this 
secondhand sunshine

Reason for writing:

    um feeling like i was spending too much time doing too much of nuthin
very not cool lol    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2000-02-07 02:10:32
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:47
Poem ID: 54672

You need to log in to edit this poem if it is yours.

View more poems by J James.